Little White Coats
Welcome to Little White Coats!
Little White Coats is the brainchild of Richard M. Pescatore II, DO, a first-year emergency medicine resident at Cooper University Hospital in Camden, NJ. He is a 2014 graduate of the Philadelphia College of Osteopathic Medicine. Follow him here as he starts his residency in emergency medicine.
Dr. Pescatore also serves as an EMS medical director in Pennsylvania. He was graduated from the U.S. Naval Academy with a degree in aerospace engineering, and had planned to pursue a career as a nuclear submarine officer until an EMS run five years ago took him to a familiar but unexpected place. That call made him realize that EMS was more than a hobby and that his future was in medicine.
Read more about how Dr. Pescatore ended up as a "little white coat" in his first blog post, "Changing Course," and don't forget to sign up for the RSS feed for this blog to read his new entries.
Monday, December 15, 2014
I first met heroin when I was a brand new medical student at the local needle exchange program. This organization provided free and clean needles for intravenous drug users. It was early March when I first set out to volunteer with the needle exchange. Cutting classes for the day, I drove downtown to search for the program offices. I made lap after lap around crumbled, aging buildings before I spotted the sign, a fading yellow placard that swung lazily from rusted chains. I pressed the lock button on my car’s keyless entry remote a few extra times.
It took a few minutes to enter the exchange office, requiring passage through three locked doors, each guarded by a suspicious, jaded secretary who needed wooing before granting access. Finally, I entered the wood-paneled cavern that the program had claimed, an aging mix of law library and crack den. A spandex-clad receptionist pulled herself out of her chair to greet me. "They're ready to go in the van out back. You'd better head out there."
I settled in for the short ride to the exchange site. The setup was simple. Nestled in an overgrown field south of the city, far from the eyes of potential businessmen and graciously ignored by the municipal police, we set up three tables. "Customers" would approach the first table and hand over a single dirty syringe. Then they would proceed to the middle counter, where a selection of BD's finest awaited, categorized by volume and gauge. A point of the finger (no words uttered here), and each would receive 200 tiny needles. The last table held the accouterments that these venous veterans required: tourniquets, alcohol wipes, and sterile water for injection.
I was amazed by the diverse clientele that shuffled through our makeshift bodega. Lady Liberty's huddled masses were present, of course, but it quickly became apparent that heroin use was much more universal than I thought. When a brand-new Jeep Cherokee pulled up with mom, dad, sister, and brother each claiming their 200, I began to see just how deep the rabbit hole went. Heartbreaking stories continued to fly through, staying only long enough to secure their supplies for the week. Brothers. Families. Prostitutes and their pimps. Sunken eyes told tales of debilitating dependence and more than a few brushes with death.
We were forbidden to ask if anyone wanted medical help or counseling. Such intrusiveness would drive the population away, I was told, and leave more users stuck with dirty needles, increasing the risk of HIV and hepatitis transmission. I sat off to the side, my bright green scrubs making my purpose clearly evident. If anyone needed help, "They’ll ask us,” the NP informed me. And a few did. Of the hundreds of tempest-tossed who passed through, a handful asked a quick question, "Where can I ... uh ... you know ... talk to someone?" A knowing smile from the sage nurse and a ready pamphlet satisfied those concerns. One or two had a rash or bump they wanted checked, and we had to summon an ambulance for one gentleman with all the hallmarks of cellulitis and sepsis.
I went back a few times. Soon enough, though, my eyes started falling on more and more discarded needles in the gutters and on the side of the road. Whether there were more to be seen or I was just noticing them for the first time, I knew that I was part of the supply chain. Study after study will demonstrate that needle exchange programs drastically decrease the rates of HIV and other needle-borne disease, but I struggled with the collateral damage. The needle exchange and I went our separate ways.
I reunited with heroin and its victims when I began residency. Every day, I encounter casualties of addiction. Overdoses, abscesses, and endocarditis are familiar diagnoses. It’s the odd shift when there is not at least one drowsy patient in the hallway bed. Opioid abuse is so common, in fact, that I’ve sought additional resources to understand these patients a little better. I toured the city with the local state police commander, my eyes open wide as he showed me the dark alleys and barred porches where the transactions are held, taking notes as he recommended expecting certain adulterants if my patient came from one part of the city versus another. I’ve scoured online message boards, learning about “greasing,” “morning shots,” cotton fever, and lime juice cookdowns.
It seems that heroin has become as much a part of my learning journey as chest pain, shortness of breath, and nonspecific belly pain. What was once a brief exploration of a not-too-distant underbelly is now an important consideration nearly every time I walk into the ED. I’m thankful for the peek into the world the needle exchange offered me, and can only hope that we can part ways again.
What have your encounters with heroin patients been like? What do you think of needle exchange programs?
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
I’ve spent the past few weeks away from the emergency department. Having tackled my first three months of residency, the schedule now has me rotating through one of our hospital’s critical care units. I show up every day and take my spot among the ranks of internal medicine residents who keep the hospital floors humming.
It’s a different experience from what I’m used to. The hours are longer, but usually not as hurried as my shifts in the ED. Where I might strive to see and disposition 20 patients from the department, it’s a busy day on the floor when I see more than a half-dozen. The day progresses differently, with plenty of time for in-depth discussion and comprehensive dissection of each case. Attending physicians and senior residents spend countless minutes exploring subtopics and clinical questions, and it’s a new experience to see where patients go and what happens to them once they leave the ED. Perhaps more importantly, this serves as an essential opportunity to form closer relationships with the admitting teams and consulting services that I often see so transiently while on shift.
It’s a mixed bag. I’m dismayed each morning by the rounds that seem to never end, but I revel in the incredible conversation and seemingly endless knowledge of my team members. I enjoy the broad differential entertained by the inpatient teams, but sometimes I become exasperated with what occasionally feels like zebra hunting. Still, I suppose, the medical safari has opened my mind to a host of maladies and broadened my differential for the future.
The patients and pathologies I have the chance to see each day are motivating and captivating. I’ve learned the value of exploration, and have come to appreciate the lengths to which the inpatient diagnosticians go to ensure the best for my patients. As October comes to an end, however, I’m eager to make my way back to the emergency department, and can’t wait for the familiarity and flow I’ve come to love.
Fellow interns, how is your first year going? Senior residents, any advice for us newbies?
Wednesday, August 06, 2014
With July come and gone, my fellow interns and I are starting to feel (slightly) more confident in our newfound roles as emergency medicine residents. I still haven’t figured out how to get surgery to come downstairs quicker, but I can at least direct my patients toward the bathroom without consulting a tech first (just around the corner, across from the stretchers). Each day holds its own lessons, excitements, victories, and disappointments. So far, it’s everything I’d hoped for.
Our residency orientation closed with a presentation by one of our seasoned attendings called, “The Ten Commandments of Emergency Medicine.” These maxims, which at this rate would take up more than a few stone tablets, yield advice ranging from “ovaries complicate things” to “be on the lookout for the Holy Grail.” (http://bit.ly/1pXI96J.) It’s the perfect lecture before we hit the department, a mixture of sage guidance and lighthearted warnings for the new interns. One commandment in particular, though, has stuck with me: an admonishment to “spend our coins wisely.”
It’s an apt metaphor. We all begin with a certain number of “coins in our pocket,” or mental energy and motivation, at the beginning of each day or shift. They’re a fluid resource. A difficult patient or situation may try to steal our coins, just as a great case or well-timed cup of coffee can replenish the stack. A bad day’s sleep on a string of nights might start your coffers lower than usual. It might cost a few coins to fight GI on the NG tube or to try to sell a social admit to a grumpy medicine resident.
I think about the coins metaphor often as I move throughout my day, and I’ve brought the imagery home so my wife understands when I tell her I’m running low on coins and don’t have the energy to do this task or to argue that point. I’ve had more than a few shifts where nothing seems to go right, where all of the answers I offer are wrong, where my lumbar punctures resemble more of a merlot than a champagne tap, and where my patients get stuck in a holding pattern I just can’t seem to break.
But I’m finding I have coins to spare even on the worst days. Maybe it’s because I’m still just so excited to finally be where I am. More than likely, it has something to do with the safety net I know is all around me: a smiling third-year by my side with every critical patient, a seasoned nurse to help at every turn, and a collected attending I can always catch out of the corner of my eye, keeping one of theirs on me at each step. So far, at least, I’ve been able to spend my coins freely, and I’m fortunate enough that the incredible people with whom I get to work ensure that my change purse remains full.
Saturday, June 07, 2014
“Your next great adventure awaits you.” So read my horoscope in Aruba’s daily news this morning. My wife (I got married last week, by the way) announced the prophecy as she drifted along in the hotel pool, piña colada in one hand, tattered paper in the other. “You will have a chance to prove yourself.” It was eerie, almost, just how correct the silly superstition was.
I’ve finished medical school. A few days ago my classmates walked across a makeshift dais and received their diplomas. I skipped the day in question; a honeymoon seemed more pressing. With that long-awaited piece of paper, we moved from being student-physicians to becoming the nation’s newest doctors. Our little white coats grew a few inches, and we all stood a little taller, proud of our accomplishment and pleased with the achievements shared by our friends.
Medical school was hard for me. Just as there were high points and victories, there were difficulties and struggles. The academic gauntlet of the first and second years morphed into the stressful rotations of the third and fourth years. Each month brought another test of knowledge, resolve, or patience. For every success or triumph, there came the occasional setback. I’d score a good grade or positive evaluation on one elective, and then agonize over a bad outcome or close call. The frustrations I’ve written of in the past would, at times, seem overwhelming.
But just as the Scorpio soothsaying said, my next journey is just beginning. It’s more monumental than it seems at first, I suppose, when I consider that nearly every move I’ve made over the past four years has been aimed at preparing me for my first few days of residency. Every study session, late night in the hospital, or extra shift on the ambulance was only so that my first hours as a doctor prepared me for three years of on-the-job learning and the medical discoveries waiting for me in residency.
I’m so excited it’s difficult to sit still. Even as I stroll the white sand beaches on my much-needed vacation, my heart beats in anticipation of the weeks to come. My wife, just finishing intern year herself, forbade me from carting Tintinalli across the Atlantic. My mind races with eager thoughts of my first scheduled shift (an overnight on a June weekend!) and the idea of finally growing into the doctor I’ve hoped to become.
But, just like in medical school, the peaks are tempered by valleys. As much as I’m excited for the weeks to come, I’m nervous and anxious about the path ahead. I worry that a knowledge gap — a clinical pearl I missed while cutting out early on a sunny day — could put a patient at risk. I fret that I won’t know the right answer when time is of the essence or that my training up till now will prove inadequate. Most of all perhaps, I worry about disappointing the mentors and role models who have helped me along the way, several of whom are my new attendings. Riding in a car with two of my future senior residents the other day, all I could think was, “Wow, they’re smart.” I confess to breaking open the books that night, anxious about my apparent deficiencies.
For now, though, I’m taking the advice of so many and relaxing before the beginning of my great adventure. The sounds of crashing surf fill my ears and my greatest worry is only that my glass is running low and the blender just seems so far away. My vacation marks the beginning of two journeys I’ve looked forward to for so long, and I know that each will always have its highs and lows, but I’ll need to savor each moment all the same. I hope you’ll stay with me as I don a slightly longer coat to begin my career as an emergency physician.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Today is Match Day. It's the medical school equivalent of Christmas, if Christmas came only once, and was one of the pivotal moments in a soon-to-be physician's career. Match Day is the culmination not just of the long and sometimes arduous journey that is medical school, but also the obvious end of the rollercoaster process of "The Match."
It formally began nearly a year ago. The online application system opened, and candidates across the country and around the world scrambled to submit paperwork as quickly as possible, speed and accuracy of documentation substituting in our minds as some misguided measure of dedication. Once the personal statements, board scores, and letters of recommendation were sent off, it was time to wait. That would become a common theme in the process.
We waited through the early Autumn, eagerly anticipating offers of interview from our favorite programs. We panicked when our inboxes remained empty, but breathed a sigh of relief after the ACEP Scientific Assembly when the notices finally came. We scrambled yet again to schedule interviews and dates. Latecomers were stuck with five days straight of interviews in every corner of the country. Once scheduled, though, it was time to wait again.
Interviews were an exercise in Tantalus’s torture. I was intent on staying in Philadelphia, and I saw myself content at every program with which I interviewed, and I could only count the days until I might don the longer coat I so coveted. I stood in awe at the history and wisdom held within Drexel's old halls, and delighted at the modernity and expertise throughout Einstein's. Jefferson's ultrasound experience wooed me just as Christiana's EMS opportunities did. I reveled among the FOAM superstars at Temple. I survived the legendary McNamara interview.
And just like that, it was time to wait again. Emails came and went, but we know not to put too much stock in assurances. The Match has surprised more than a few of our friends and predecessors.
Monday was an important day. Known in some venues as "Pre-Match Day,” the noon email from the NRMP was arguably the most important one of the week. I had matched ... somewhere. The hard work and long wait hadn't been for nothing, and my goal of becoming an emergency physician was set to come true. I was thrilled, but had little time for celebration as I returned to work. The real Match Day, the one I'd been waiting for, was still days away. And so I waited some more.
I can remember the first patient I ever saw. I was an 18-year-old EMT student, my white polo shirt and black rescue pants still bearing the folded creases from the store shelf where I’d bought them earlier that day. I was nervous. Through luck or fate I’d been assigned to the region’s largest trauma center and busiest emergency department — Cooper University Hospital in Camden, NJ — and I fumbled with the blood pressure cuff as I awkwardly wrapped it around the skinny arm of my first charge.
My fingers fumbled similarly when the match notice from the NRMP chirped from my inbox this afternoon. My stomach tightened as I clicked through the requisite screens, and my spine sent chills throughout my arms and legs. I finally made it to the result, and my smile stretched from ear to ear. I had matched my first choice, and nearly a decade after that fateful night in EMT school, I would be returning to Cooper as a young emergency physician.
My phone began to erupt with notes of congratulation and news of classmates' fortunes. A friend rejoiced over his perfect match while another sang a more remorseful song. All the while, my elation stayed firm.
But just like the months that stood between each step of The Match, the waiting begins again. I'll start residency soon enough, but until then it’s just a waiting game until I can cross the dais, collect my diploma, and begin this next step of the journey.